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Edward Cullen

I have been analyzing the reasons that girls, myself included, are so drawn to edward cullen....why is it so easy to wish that this fictional killer is real. WARNING : some of these thoughts will only be appreciated by the female gender. ALSO I am quite in ernest when i get to the end and have some spiritual parrallels.

Edward Cullen:

1. He's beautiful- they describe like an angel. What girl in her right mind wouldn't love that!

2. He is protective - in a day and age that a girl has to worry about whether her guy is a boy or a man, that is highly attractive. she is secure, she is safe

3. He is superhuman - umm duh!! wouldn't you like to ride on his back while he runs?? but this also means superhuman strength to...nothing can hurt you

4. He is sacrificial - he would rather give up his own life and happiness to make her life better

5. He sparkles!!!! - no explanation needed!! ;)

6. He is a gentleman - he grew up in the early 1900...he has all the manners and old fashion ideals from that time

7. He has self control/discipline

8. He is not human - there is something (i think this is a huge part of the draw even toward these book and that life) supernatural about the cullens. Not in an occult or creep way, they are not normal. They do not live a petty life. I think as christians we see all this and our spirit craves that supernatural, superhuman world that we were meant to live. We even crave a lover that is so beautiful and perfect that won't let us down,....that can protect us through all odds. So off course..not trying to be cheesy....but i had been praying as i read these books why i was so overwhelmingly drawn to him, only to be reminded that we have a lover that can protect us from anything, that is superhuman, that is even more beautiful then the angels. and he loves me more then life itself. He was ultimately sacrificial. soo  yeah those are my pent up thoughts about edward cullen.

so i could really use everyones prayers right about now. i just got a call from my mom and she says that my car needs about 1200 dollars worth of work, and tht totally cuts the legs of coming down to live here this summer out from underneath me. i believe it is God for me to be here, so i am trusting he will provide, but at the same time it might be his will for me to come home. he is challenging me right now to be happy with either. to be satisfied to go whatever direction he sends me. i am trying. i would just like to know whats happening....

I AM SO SICK OF BLASTED BOYS HURTING ME!!! AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

I THINK I HAVE MADE THE DECISION TO STAY SINGLE MY WHOLE LIFE, AND SAVE MYSELF THE TROUBLE....

its just been one of those days. it began with my 8:30 class...one of my favorites because we discuss case studies of missionaries and come to conclusions. well my teacher also brings in and serves brazilion coffee, and his wife's amazing homemade muffin. oh yeah! welll the class was amazing...spent most of it in prayer and he prophecied after a women shared of her time in Argentina. it was great. then the next class is another of my favorites. but i guess i had to pay for what a good time i had in the last class. because one of my friends bumped my coffee cup that was on my desk and the contents filled my lap. oh divine. then chapel made up for it with the AMAZING time of worship. lunch i was anxious and i was the same basicly the rest of the day. i spent most of it in prayer to keep my nerves down. then tonight i waited for a phone call which didn't come while i worked on my six page paper, writing it straight through. which might be normal for some of you, but me and writing don't agree. so then i had to clean the bathroom becuase it was my night, and then i slammed my hand in the door. oh fun...

so yeah my day was jolly...uh...strange...hehe

i was asked the other day if i am from the ghetto....oh Lord help me....hehehe...